Well...

I have recently dropped out of college and am trying to bring my problems here in Pittsburgh to an end. Beside the money problems, it became pretty clear to me that because of how I have changed here(mentally and everything), I'm not really meant for this right now. This place is meant for kids who don't have to work and have mommy and daddy fitting the bill for everything so they can focus on school and don't have to be subjected to the vile cold of this city on a daily basis. I'm not exactly bashing those types (and there are plenty around here), but I am a little jealous of them.

Now what's going to happen is that I am going to move into the little basement at work and live there for awhile and try to figure some things out while I save all of the money I make. Some options are me going to California with my sister to get into a potentially better situation, military, or..stay here and get into a hella cheaper school. I have yet to decide. All I know now is that I need money.

I have also spoken to my father recently. We had a nice long conversation about what I've been doing. Although things have been terrible between us from the day I was born to only recently, I know I can trust him for a no bullshit and relatively educated opinion. He says that going to California with my sister would probably be best. I want my relationship with my family to improve (only those members who want it to) since it has been completely shredded. For that to happen, I have to be honest with them. Me being gay is a pretty big secret that I didn't want many of them to hear, but I do now. If anything good came from this city, it is that it has made me more honest.

So, to recap, out of school, hate the north, planning on next step, trying.